New Cell phone


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I got my new cell phone and passed my other one to my brother. I love this new Motorola V400 cellphones. They have lots of features that I didn't have with LG and the reception from Fido and Rogers is doing fine till now. Bell reception drove me carzy!!

I have put "Turkish March" on as the ring and have a nice orchid flower as the screensaver. I used to have Hungrian Dance as my ring on my previous cell phone but I think this song is a nice touch.

New Year's Resolution

Start taking technical courses, form M.Eng to studying for GMAT.
Master Microsoft Project and AutoCad soon too.
start dancing or practice Takwando as a sport to stay healthy.
Take more Vitamins and encourage myself to more healthy eating:)
Be tuned it might increase;)

Happy holidays


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This year that I am working at Novopharm, it's Novopharm's tradition to shut down the plants for a week and that is completely awesome. I started my vacation on the Friday night at Eglinton and Yonge where it was ISU's Yalda party. It was fun and very crowded. DJ Dynamite was good but the other one not as much.I ended up going home right after the party around 2:00..It made me wonder, Last year I ended up going out with my friends to get a bite afterwards, but not anymore this year!!Am I getting a boring person?less active and not as much into partying?saturday, I spent the day with my friend, we played Pocker and we came back to my house for dinner. Dinner was delicious and then we started opening up presents after the christmass tradition. Although usually people open their presents in the morning of Christmass day but opened up on Christmass eve.I spent Christmass day with my friend playing cards, cooking and watching movie. Monday,which was boxing day, we went for shopping and then started to watch Sex and The city Series. Tuesday was all Sex and the City series watching and playing cards, Hearts, Rim. I want to learn 21 or black Jack soon too:)My friend goes back to work for the rest of the week but I am off. I wanted to organize a night out with my girlfriends but one of my close friends is away on ski trip and I guess I will wait until she comes back:)I probably use the rest of this holiday to go to the bank, shopping,relaxing,buying a note book for myself so I can take notes at work. Study validation notes, go ice skating if possible,help out in the household chores and expect the unexpected;)I wish everyone a Merry Christmas and Happy new year. Hope everyone is enjoying this time as much I am enjoying:)

Last week was very busy for me. Meetings, studying, my car oil change, and two great lunchs. One lunch out, at Bombay Palace and the other was at our company. I like the attitude of appreciation in Novopharm. When I compare to other places, I appreciate their employee care and their stress free envrionment. I finally think I know all the component of a validation protocol!!from IQ,OQ,PQ, and a bit of PLC..and looking forward to learn more. I just learned about GEP(Good engineering practice) and I want to get my hands on that book and start reading it:), I have been reading GMP(Good Manufacturing Practice) and mostly for quality control booklet, that contains the guidlines and regulations and most importantly the rational behind the regulation. I love the logic ladder:)anyways I will be going to a christmass party tonight and to helping out for Mohandes party tomorrow but aslo going to my friend's coworker's house warming party:)It all seem so busy but they are all filled with lots of fun, joy and love and tons of memory to remember these days by.

Precious-Depeche Mode



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Precious and fragile things
Need special handling
My God what have we done to You?
We always try to share
The tenderest of care
Now look what we have put You through...

Things get damaged
Things get brokenI thought we managed
But words left unspoken
Left us so brittle
There was so little left to give
Angels with silver wings
Shouldn't know suffering
I wish I could take the pain for you

If God has a master plan
That only He understands
I hope it's your eyes
He's seeing through

I pray you learn to trust
Have faith in both of us
And keep room in your hearts for two

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Alot has happened since my last post. I just didn't have time to write about them. From one of my very good friends birthday party last friday to Jewllary making party on saturday and good bye gathering of one of my friends on saturday night. Also last week it was my friend's talk at Mohandes science and technology subcommitte. I enjoyed his talk and it's amazing how you can solve problems of one descipline with other descipline's facts! Jewllary making party was great,specailly for me how has never tried it. It was seven of us and we went shopping for stones and all the accessories and mean while thinking of ideas of what to make:)It's amazing that 7 girls were together, working really hard without much talking!!It was fun. I like to continue doing more..the funny thing is that when I told my coworkers at work, they were asking if they can buy them!!!!It's funny, I am a novice still;)may be a bussiness comes out of it:P...I think it's time for exploring other arts aspect of my life that I have put on hold for so long. I want to learn to play harps. I just need to find a good teacher and start hopefully in the next few month..There are so many things I want to do that I have to make a schadule of them:)BTW, I finally learned to play Texas type Poker!!!It's really cool. Also I looked at the stock market game that apparently is the new hype;)anyways tons of things to do and not much time:)But I look forward to them. I am very content at this point of my life. I applied for a validation position in my company,which I am hoping to get, but even if I don't, no sweats..but more importantly, I am in love!!

Last Thursday I went to my friend's convocation. Listening to the speech of one of the professors and his life advises to the graduating class of 0T5 was interesting. Basically STOP and take time to take the easy way out! Try to understand how precious are your time, your times you spend with your loved ones. I loved his speech, however I disagreed with some of the Dean of graduate studies at U of T. I felt and found the statistics that she was giving out for the status of a masters/PhD degrees, were unreal and out of touch with market and industry. Ofcourse there are always special cases but the major suffer.
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Saturday I went to Simin joon's wedding. It was a small wedding but full of love. I wish her and her husband a great life together. Life is too short to waste it on worthless issues, or issues that has proven to bring hurtful results.
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Work is fine. Very smooth, and no one is at my tail trying to micro manage me. Specially that I am in the best supervisor's team and I have the best trainer ever. The only thing that bothers me a bit is that I am seeing a pattern in my coworker's behavior toward myself from my Purdue position and here at Novopharm. I have found out that I would rather work with female coworkers than male ones. There is atleast one guy in the work place that I don't want to have any contact and conversation. And guess where he sits!!!Just behind me. His voice,his egosystical behavior makes me talk as minimal as possible with him, Ask absolutely for no help from him and try to ignore him. Thank God for Elena and Shaf at work. I can talk to them about future and that's what keeps me sane. I am learning the techniques I always like to learn hrtr but still I can't stop thinking of moving to a new position. . I just wish I knew if I am moving toward the right direction or not...Everything is so complicated. Higher education not necessarily means better life. So I am lost in where to gear..

It's a great day today. It's my best friend's convocation at U of T:)can't wait to see him in the hood;)

Some times I get extremely sick and tired of people who do not understanding the obvious. Anyways, I am going to make more time for my girlfriends and female friends for a while since I am over loaded with testosterone!!This weekend, Saturday I am going for a wedding and Sunday I am going to watch a movie with Anna. Anna has recently had a huge abdomen's surgery and I like to cheer her up by going to movies with her:)I want to make time for Melissa and the girls I met at GSK as well. I guess in the coming weeks. I might go and visit Purdue and probably will attend Novopharm's Christmas party. Today a girl from another department came to me and asked me if I want to go for lunch and I said yes and joined her and her friend with Shaf, my classamte at U of T. We ended up having a great conversation and realizing that she is a chemical engineer as well. We talked about U of T and talked about future. It was fun. I hope I can find the people I want to find, to ask my future career questions. Listening to people from different backgrounds and ages are always interesting to me. I never get bored of it. How long have you been working here?Oh god I think it has been 16 years!!the lady answered. So you must be pretty happy with this company that you have stayed here so long. I finally heard the sentence that I was looking for, for the past year. The sentence that freaks me out and makes me be single for the rest of my life!!Once you have a family with kids you don't really have the choice to move around and experience different companies or different fields, She said. How can I balance this?How can I convince myself that being married and having kids is not the end of my career life, specially now that I think I have found the love of my life?

Feeling Good- Michael Buble


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Love the jazz in this song and love the lyrics. Enjoy:)

Birds flying high
You know how I feel
Sun in the sky
You know how I feel
Reeds driftin' on by
You know how I feel

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life For me
And I'm feeling good

Fish in the sea
You know how I feel
River running free
You know how I feel
Blossom in the tree
You know how I feel

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life For me
And I'm feeling good

Dragonfly out in the sun
you know what I mean, don't you know
Butterflies all havin' fun you know what I mean
Sleep in peace when the day is done
And this old world is a new world
And a bold world For me
Stars when you shine
You know how I feel
Scent of the pine
You know how I feel
Yeah freedom is mine
And I know how I feel

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life For me
And I'm feeling good

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First week of work was interesting. Lots of reading but interesting. This time when I was reading SOPs and all the T&Qs, I was more into it and understood much more than last year when I was at Purdue. I liked the training program at Novopharm and I think the structure of everything in detail is fascinating. Novopharm is a big company with ~1500 people. It was bought by Teva, and became the largest pharmaceutical generic company in the world. I guess that's why there was so much thought in the production of the documentation and guidlines. Well I have seen them in Quality Control,Planning and Logistic groups. I am blessed to be part of the largest company in the world:) The first day, I found one of my classmates at U of T there and we are going for breaks together. People are friendly and apparantly I have won the QC lottary!!According to everyone in the department I have got the best supervisor and group out of the 16 supervisors in our department. Consider yourself very fortunate, my trainer said to me. I enjoyed exploring the company last week and can't wait to start working. The only thing that concerns me is the toxicity of some of those drugs. Novopharm is known for Penicillin at one of their facilities that is only dedicated for production. But our sight we have tons of different Vitamins, Antibiotics, Cancer treatment drugs as well as lots of over counter and pet drugs. Weekend was fun. My friend and I participated in College puzzle challange by Microsoft and tried to solve some puzzles:)and today hopefully is reflection and relaxing time and getting ready for tomorrow for another great adventure at Novopharm.

Halloween


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Well, Well, well, last week was full of events. Thursday they called me from Novopharm to offer me the job I was interviewed for. I am still in negotiations with them:) I cut my hair on friday but didn't end up getting the pink hi lights I was looking for. I think I am going to stay with the color I have now, despite the fact that sometimes I feel it looks totally boring!!Saturday I went to my friend's Halloween party. This year I didn't really dress up as anything special but I know what I am going to dress up next year;) Many creative people at the party who dressed up with great glamour!!I started reading a new book, 100 years of solitude, and it is interesting to me since it has been a while since I read a book with this type of writing style. My friend and I finished our first puzzle and started another one. The new one is black and white with a picture of two kitty cats resting. They are very cute and I can't wait to finish this one as well and find a frame for them to display them:)other than that life is going smoothly and I can't wait for a makeover!!I better go now and start studying my validation notes!

Confessions on a dance floor



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When "Hung up" a music track of "Confessions on a dance floor album" was played on radio, I got very excited. I am a fan of Madanna, for her courage to examine society's taboos, double standards. "I am here to provoke people" she says. Some how she ignites questions in people's mind about issues that they might not even think exists. Make you think about whys. And that is why I like some of her attempts in trying to change the way some things are portray in society. Madonna is known for reinventing herself, from physical make overs to her emotional and spiritual make overs. "Hung up" is a dance music that I can listen over and over without getting tired of it. It's a fusion of two distinct beats. She says: "People think that dance music does not need meaningful lyrcis, however I beg to differ". Here is the lyrics for Hung Up which is going to be No. one very soon on the music charts:

"Time goes by so slowly
Time goes by so slowly

Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung up
I'm hanging up on you
Waiting for your call Baby night and day
I'm fed up
I'm tired of waiting on you

Time goes by so slowly for those who wait
No time to hesitate
Those who run seem to have all the fun
I'm caught up I don't know what to do

Time goes by so slowly
Time goes by so slowly
I don't know what to do
Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung up
I'm hanging up on you
Waiting for your call Baby night and day
I'm fed up
I'm tired of waiting on you

Ring ring ring goes the telephone
The lights are on but there's no-one home
Tick tick tock it's a quarter to two
And I'm done
I'm hanging up on you
I can't keep on waiting for you
I know that you're still hesitating
Don't cry for me 'cause
I'll find my way
you'll wake up one day but it'll be too late "

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Monday they called for the interview, Wednesday I went for the interview, Thursday they called for my references and now I am filling in the form for them. Everything is going smoothly. and I am starting my training for validation tonight. Hope fully it ends up well. Life can't be any better, when you are progressing in your career, when you have someone who loves you drealy and you love them back crazyly and found tons of cool stuff that have always wanted to try and never got the chance or courage to do so, specially now that I have found a partner in crime;). I am grateful for everything I have in my life and everything I don't have. Thank you God for giving me the courage to beilieve in myself and accept all the goodness surrounding me.

So today was the interview day. I made sure my pants were at the right length size;)made them shorter to custumize it with my high hill shoes. Learned about the company and left the house early to get there on time. I got there half an hour earlier, went over my resume with myself and looked at their products again and finally went to the builiding I was suppose to go. It was a nice building. The managers I had the interview with were paged and we went to the interview room. They asked about my previous experience and some technical stuff and mostly they wanted to know if I can cope with their group or not. They had a huge group. 150 people only in one department with 11 supervisors!!it was great that when they started talking about technical stuff, it wasn't news to me. I knew what they are talking about and could give them examples. I appreciate Purdue for training me for ever. Anyways, they have a few more people to interview. I don't know if I get this position or not, but I am happy I started the ball rolling again. It made me ready for the other interview ones to come.

And finally I won the investigation I called upon CIBC, with regards to their negligane in communicating with the City of Toronto and they are paying me back the money they owe me:)..I guess it was somewhat my lucky day. I guess I will know for sure when I realize the result of the interview.

Got an interview from Novopharm on wednesday at 11:00..Pray for me

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The weekend was fun, Friday night I met with my persian girl friends at Cafe Mirage, It has the best Honey lemon soothers and moca cakes!!four girls talking about life and career/school decisions. It's good to hear other what other people think on what you have on your mind. And ofcourse when girls meet, they gossip about guys;) Saturday, my friend and I progressed alot in our puzzle and we cooked Pirashki ghosti in 5 different styles!! and today was mostly relaxing following up with things. Mellisa emailed me and told me that my ex-supervisor is leaving Purdue in two weeks. I am shocked to hear that. I hope everything is okay with her. I am planning to meet her and go for a coffee. I am planning to go out with Packaging team leader too. She keep calling me to set a date:)..and ofcourse I need to take Mellisa to a good persian deseart place:) my extra carricular activities are fully planned for this week and I am planning to visit GSK this week if possible. I am going to visit my old lab at U of T too:) I am trying to find some information about MBA..I want to start studying for GMAT...anyone knows the average score requirement on that test?

Monopoly rocks

CVG convention was fruitful for me. I can't beilieve how easy it is now for me to go forward and talk to exceutive people. I think I have defeat my shyness;)I got several bussines cards to follow up with them, which is great to by pass HR. I finally met the president of PharmEng technologies..I have been meaning to meet him for the past year and met him face to face and talked briefly with him. It was good that Lu, The director of Validation at Purdue was there to put some good words for me in front of the president of that company..I found two friends at GSK and I am planning to meet them for lunch and have tour of GSK next week. Long weekend was fun. As planned 10 of my friends and I went to Algonquin Park for two day and one night. We rented a cottage near a lake there. Food, Monopoly game and hiking were the highlights of the trip. It was a wonderful trip because the work load was distributed among everyone and everyone could enjoy the trip and ofcourse the chemistry between the friends in this group as I anticipated was great and hence we had a memrobale weekend with tons of pictures. Monday was relaxing time, My friend and I decided to go to O'gradys for lunch and afterwards it was puzzle time:)we started a 1000 piece puzzle. We still have to finish it:)..life is going well..I am relaxing and trying to think about my future plans and at the same time how I can improve my life spritually...since my grandmother has been here, I started to think about two different extreme opinions and how I can find what is trueth and peace and balance between these walks of life and find the road to salvation..is it by just obeying religious rules or is it by thinking of the roots of the rules and then logically practicing it?

Today is CVG convention and I am hoping to make some links..so pray for me please;)..last night was an interesting night..the team leader of packaging group at Purdue called me, here how is the conversation went:

Anna: Hi girl, You are missed around here, we miss your smile and presence.
J.E: I miss you guys too:(
Anna: Why don't you apply for the packaging supervisor position
J.E:...e...e...actually I did submit my resume to HR and talked to Anu
Anna: Oh that's great..I will talk to Anu tomorrow about you and put a good word for you
J.E: But I don't have any experience!!!you guys have been working there for 25-35 years!!
Anna: We will teach you everything.. and you will learn alot from SOPs don't worry hon. we will teach you what to do when things go wrong and all that..
J.E: Thanks...(at this point I didn't know what to say..just was sooooooo happy)
Anna: You know I keep your rose in my room and I love it..I choose my friends carefully but I keep them...Hey do you want to go to Bon Jovi's concert in Jan?
J.E:!!!!!OF COURSE!!!
This was the strangest coversation I have ever had..I always wanted to make a change in the environment I be at whether working or not and it seems that I did that for good..I couldn't imagine in my wildest dreams that the group wants me as their boss!!!well lets see how the management think about me!!

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Last week has been full of events..I did a whole body check;)for Preventive maintanace ofcourse:P..and everything seems to be allright. I have been busy shopping with my grandmother for gifts and saturday I was invited to one of my friend's house warming party. It was fun although I was very very sick, I am still sick:( but for the people who know me, sickness won't allow me quit what I want to do. So last night I went to see my close classmates from undergrad. Joelle, Muna, Lina and Maria. 5 girls chatting. It is funny how our conversations is changing to life challanges now. Muna is getting married on May 20th and Maria is on June 17th, and both were planning their weddings and it was all talks about planning and how to do what. And ofcourse our newly weds, Joelle and Lina were giving us husband and wife advices;)it is interesting how things are changing..everything is different now..Lina is going to invite us to her house soon..life is going smoothly. I am on vacation now and haven't started looking for jobs seriously yet..I am planning to go to algonquin park with a group of my close friends this thanks giving long weekend we are going to be there for two days and one night. I am anticipating that it's going to be real fun. I have been thinking of going there for a while now and finally the time has come. Hopefully I am fully recoverd by that time. I am also planning to have a girls night out with my other groups of girl friends in about two week:). I think it is going to be a fun month for me. October is actually one of my favorite month. And this year it's my reitriving energy time;)

Last day at work was very emotional. The morning was as usual, I started my last control experiment and was hoping it passes by the time I finish work and thank god it did:)At break time I went out to all three groups and gave out their chocolates and roses..They were suprized..specailly packaging team leader on day shift was suprized. Our student gave me a bag of chips;)she told me when she was shopping last night she remembered how I like salty stuff;)and she bought that for me..It was so nice of her to remember me and to buy that for me..she just knew me for 14 days..at lunch time my department had a good bye lunch for me and I thought it would like other ones..we ate lunch, I talked to Melisa, she was excited to go for a photo shoot for a modeling agency..and we both were so excited!I was helping out putting the dishes away when they brought a cake!!!OH MY GOD..is it someone's birthday?no we brought it for you!!I was shocked..it was a nice cake that Ayleen bought..it was delicious..then I got my second suprize, they brought a big basket of flowers for me..as soon as I saw that just looked at my supervisor, then at the rest of the groups..I hugged her and couldn't stop crying..my manager said"do anything except crying;)!!so I brought myself together and thanked everyone individually and hugged everyone. The most intimidating guy in the company was there and he said..when are you going to hug me;)!!!but I don't want to hug in front of everyone here!!I didn't end seeing him unfortuantely I was so caught up with phone calls of good bye and night packaging team leader emotional good bye..hugs and kisses..that I couldn't finish saying good bye to everyone..but you know what..I might go back there again...;)

Last day at work & family reunion

It was has been very busy the past two weeks, with my grand mother here, and a few days ago our relatives in US came here to be with us for a few day. It's wonderful to have family here..I love listening to them and talking about so many different things. And last but not least today is my last day at work. My supervisor didn't want to accept that I have to go..I know she fought for me till wednesday, when she realized that she can't change the GM's decision on taking contract people for this year's budget.. She was litarary in tears when she told me how she doesn't want me to leave..I beilieve her because now all my work is transfered to my other coworkers and they are going to be stressed for a while!!and they already got some;) Well my department is ordering lunch for my good bye party and I have bought chocolates for three departments who helped and were so kind to me in the past year. For Packaging girls, Production guys and my department quality, I bought cards to remember thank them and one rose stem..ofcourse it had to be fake rose since we are not allowed to bring anything alive in the building!;)Well I am going to miss all of them..girls for sharing their life stories to me and never left me out on nights..boys for being so kind and bringing the tablets to me so I don't have to dress up to go to production. Smiling and waving hands at me as I did while walking down the hall, million times a day;)..and last but not least, I don't know how to thank Kerri who was my trainer. She is the best person I know, patient, kind and considerate. I not only learned technical stuff from her but also how to be a human. I want to thank Purdue Pharma for giving me the chance to be in this wondeful environment and making last year one of the joyous years of my life.

My grandmother being here is one of the most interesting things that has happened since we moved to T.O. Listening to all the stories and family history and who ended up how was interesting. Comparing ideas and thinking about them is always fun for me, so I am doing a lot of that now;)Mohandes meeting went wonderful, my committee,young engineers/marketing, though weren't full and that's what exactly I am going to work on. Weekend was fun, Trying to go to the park but was so dark that no force on the planet could have made me go in the park, instead we ended up eating tachos at another park with huge light on top of our food;)dancing away in the middle of the water spray area at night was fun..Saturday was fun too, I made soup for my friend who wasn't feeling well. My family decided to go near a lake so ended up going to Whitby on sunday and the rest I spend it with my friend watching the movie "Long Kiss Good Night" you would think this movie would be sweet and romantic, eh?well wrong;)it's completely an action movie with alot of gun scence!!!I played Rami and lost big time;) In general it was a good weekend. But busy days since my grandmother is here and I am trying to minimize my outdoors activity as possible to stay with her more:)

Long weekend

Long weekend was alot of fun..I spent it with my friend relaxing mostly instead of hard core activities. We watched, The Phantom of the Opera, six degree of seperation and the note book. Phantom of the opera was great. The harmony of the singers and the songs were fantastic. We went to CNE. I enjoyed the wonderful multicultral arts and crafts from different country and we played some games and finally I had the chance to eat funnel cake;) and ofcourse tons of playing cards..Rami and Hearts..and it was back to work/reality today..which was smooth since I was really relaxed from the weekend. Tomorrow is going to be Mohandes gathering on my favorite subject of the fate and future of Mohandes. I pushed for formation of this session and finally its here. Thursday, my grandmother is going to come here and be with us for a while and my whole household is very excited. I can't wait to see her and talk to her and listen to what she says. Here I just want to leave you with the most famous song of the phantom of the Opera and ofcourse the one I love:)BTW for some strange reason some people think I look like the Chritine in that movie!!I still don't see how:P


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"In sleep
he sang to me,
in dream she came . . .
that voice which calls to me
and speaks my name . . .
And do I dream again?
For now I find
the Phantom of the Opera is there -
inside my mind . . .

Sing once again with me our strange duet . . .
My power over you grows stronger yet . . .
And though you turn from me,to glance
behind, the Phantom of the Opera
is there -inside your mind . . .

Those who have seen your face
draw back in fear . . .
I am the mask you wear . . .

It's methey hear . . .

The Phantom of the Operais there inside your/my mind . . .

Beware the Phantom of the Opera . . .
In all your fantasies,you always knew that man and mystery . .
were both in you . . .
And in this labyrinth,where night is blind

The Phantom of the Opera is there inside your/my mind . . ."

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This weekend was interesting and fun. Well first it was Maryam's birthday on friday night and a bunch of us went to Frankie Tomato. It was fun to see friends who didn't have time to see in the past few months.. then they decided to go to a club but my friend and I were so tired that we decided to just head home. Saturday was one of my best friend's engagement party and to my regret I wasn't able to go, but I had something else that was far more important in mind. I hope Saturday night becomes one of my important nights in my life..I guess we have to see..sunday was very low key..I slept most of the day;)and just relaxed..I just need a few more day of relaxation to retrieve back all my energy:)..

Sunday I got to go golfing with my company. To my wonder, it was a fun game, I always thought it's boring but we had a lot of fun, specially that none of our group knew how to golf;)well one knew and thank God that he knew a bit. I am going to work at my company for another month, which is fine, everyone in the company keep telling me that they will make me permanent, which is fine but not my major goal, but if for now makes me busy, hey why not do it. I get paid very well. I want to go on the Royal Carrabian Cruise. I heard it's a lot of fun. It's interesting that proper communication can make a lot of difference from a disaster to a an actual pleasant communication.

Last night was one of CVG's meetings with regards to the convention's prepration and planning. We are going to hold in 2 month. In this group, the directors and the managers of well known pharmaceutical companies cooperate and help to chair the sessions of the convention. I was making plans to meet the CEO of one of consulting companies last night, in which I was hoping he shows up, but to my disappointment, not only he didn't show up but also the boss of my boss's boss at my company came!!!!anyways in that situation, I couldn't even talk to any one about jobs..but the only good part about the meeting was that he saw other aspects of me, specially when he realized my major and my ties to university he got really interested. Since he is the third person from our CEO on the companies high Archy, I wish I could convince him to let me rotate in between departments. Anyways, it's funny, another manager at Apotex was there and said that he lost 3 of his chemists but the company is in hiring freez..anyways it was good to see my networking group again and listen to their discussions about quality, 6 sigma. I am going to the convention, the topics seems fantastic for discussion.
BTW..we just got a new technology with effusivity measurments to make sure the blending is homogenious in the batch prepration and every one was watching the operation from windows like a surgery from the compression room. They asked my opinion on it while I was passing by and I pointed out a saftey issue, and the head of saftey was shocked:P and he said very good point and then disappeared;)

Mohandes Picnic was fine. The weather was perfect, not too hot not to cool. However I felt under alot of pressure. It has been very tough, this past week. I have said things that I wished I haven't said so and have behaved in ways that are out of my character and I wish I haven't done so. I felt I have been acting as someone else. I have not been in my own skin. I felt I was someone else. It has drained all my energy and alienated me from people who love me the most..So here is the song by Avril Lavigne to show you how I acted and I hope you understand that I know of it..to whom I love most and might have hurt the most..

Cheers..

That's the way it is
'Cause life's like this
That's the way it is Chill out, what ya yelling for?
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see I like you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
And you're talking to me one on one but you've become Somebody else
'Round everyone else
You're watching your back
Like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
And you fall and you crawl and you break
And you take what you get
And you turn it into
Honesty and promise me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No, no, no

Business as usual

I am at my work till September and business is as usual. It's going to be very busy the upcoming weeks up to September both socially and careerwise and then a lot of things will be clear for me. And just that I might have a different view in life my grandmother will come here at the end of august and I will be busy with her:)It's great..I can't wait..I can't believe the wonderful timing..I wish my aunt could come too.

Nights in white satin

Nights in white satin
Never reaching the end
Letters I've written
Never meaning to send
Beauty I'd always missed
With these eyes before
Just what the truth is
I can't say anymore

cause I love you
Yes, I love you
Oh, how, I love you

Gazing at people
Some hand in hand
Just what I'm going thru
They can understand
Some try to tell me
Thoughts they cannot defend
Just what you want to be
You will be in the end

And I love you
Yes, I love you
Oh, how, I love you
Oh, how, I love you
Moody Blues Lyrics

Finally, yesterday my friend and I went roller blading. It wasn't as scary as I thought:)..I didn't fall, because I was focusing sooo hard on my movements. However I could see how bold my friends movements were, I admired his movements but at same time I was worried that he might fall down and get hurt. I remember, few years ago a couple friends of our family, went roller blading and one of them broke her hand. So knowing that I wanted to completely avoid falling down..I think I looked funny with all the safety gears, but I forgot the most important of all, the helmet, next time I will wear it so, I am not worry about falling down. I wish I could convince my friend to wear all the safety gears next time..It's just that I want to make sure we have fun, after the roller blading too, instead of going to hospital. Anyways I will go back again too. But I think I will try weekends this time, I was dead tired after a few practices. I think it's a great workout. But most importantly was the feeling of first time rolling on roller blades,I had to erase my memories of the four wheelers that my dad brought me from Sweitzerland when I was 14, and had to reprogram it to blades;) It's tough when you are use to having brakes at the front and now it's at the back..well later days..

well well well..The wedding was really nice. The bride's gown was Euaropian Middle ages style, with long sleeves and long tail and puffy. It was really nice. The ceremony was done with the ultimate high class and organization. They didn't miss any detail that causes disorder or ciaos. I hope both bride and groom enjoy their life together and wish the greatest for them. Their Aghd sofreh was looking great and the vidoe and photo crew were professional, apparantly one of them was Mehran Modiri's Director.Sunday was Mohandes Cruise which was done fairly good. Almost everyone enjoyed it. The funny thing was that most of the people who were at the wedding the night before were on the cruise, except the bride and groom. After wards was my best friend's good bye party. Good byes are always sad..but I wish Raha and Siamak, the best of luck and happiness with nini koochooloo, wherever thy choose to move to live. I miss you guys but I guess this is part of life. You guys have closed this chapter of your lives. I know it must have been hard to make the decision, I know it would be for me.

-Following up on your business dreams= $20
-Cell phone bills to only one destination= $50
-Making sure your sweetheart knows, he is the most improtant person on the planet for you= priceless
For every other priorities in life, there are other times, and means of thinking

-Get it;)"My advertising slogan compare to Master cards"!!

Hair Colour

I hope my hair at the end of today, ends up at least with one of these colours;)What do you thinkg?


GingerWalnut



WalnutBrown



CinnamonBlend



Honey Blond

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Work Hard, Play Harder

This is my moto now:)..I do my work as my best ability, and focous on the work while at work and nothing else.(95-100%) attention span!!I actually have suprized myself since last few months!!but once I am out of my work place..Enjoy each moment as possible..like roller blade hunting yesterday..finally got mine..I couldn't find my size..we had to try several stores to finally find it..it was sitting pretty on the shelf and only 1 was left of my size!!!I bought body whips yesterday too..Lime,Apple and orange..I always wanted to buy them, but finally did it yesterday..lets see if a cherry is a better icing or not;) I have to see if it really makes me delicious like a cake or not:P..anyways this week and weekend is busy with Mohandes cruise and a wedding I am going, I am doing some structural changes to myself too;)..you have to see me to see the change...I hope it become the change I want:)...well got to go to work now..Later days

Roller Blades

I am on afternoons this week. Meaning that I start work at 15:15-23:15, but starting next week I am going to dedicate my afternoons for roller blading:)......I am scared to death of sliding and down hills..but I have to go through my fear to grow my horizens and evolve. I am very excited for trying it.

Hart House Farm

It was great this year. I enjoyed a very good game of soccer, vasati and tons of dancing with my brother and good friends. The most important thing about this year's trip was, that I felt so much love and protection around me. The feeling that I was so drained last year on hart house farm.I am blessed. I know..

Long Weekend
We are going to wash my car today inside and outside...I am soooooooo excited..we are going to splash water all over each other...I think I will bring out my water gun;)..It's going to be both exciting and fun..and the rest of the weekend we are going to Hart house farm..so it's going to be tons of fun..specially that my brother is with me this time:)

Almost everything in life is in movement. Since relationships with people are part of life, it should move, either forward,backward or stop. It was always a question mark in my mind as in when do you decide that you want to move from one stage to another, the idea was always too scary for me but never the less,I always did what I had to do. I am the type of person that needs time to decide on things, I guess my idealist in me, stops me from fast decisions, in hope of avoiding future mistakes. But now with alot of thinking and feeling, I think and feel I am ready to move on with my life to a new stage. And the great thing about it is that I feel confident and comfortable for my decisions now..It was always fascinating for me to see how my friend's live's were put in place.

My beautiful ideas for Iran is a destant dream now, My progressive country is now going to be moving backwards. History is repeating. But I wonder if anyone wants to tolerate it or not?We shall see what the people's reactions are after the first decision of our newly elected president.

Happy belated birthday to my blog:)



I can't believe one year has gone by. Actually my blog's birthday was May 7th and this is really belated birthday for it...sorry my dear blog for forgetting your day. I don't want to be blunt but I think there is some one esle that has become as important as you in my life. So for today, just accept my gratefulness for having you:)

Election fever

Well after all discussions to vote or not to vote, to either a murderer or a theif, Iranian Embassy in Canada announced that they would not be able to provide voting services for the second round. So I guess whoever is interested has to travel to somewhere else!!!!

OFFICE POLITICS

My Supervisor:I feel the same frustration, you had when we had OOS case.But I guess I have to learn my lesson. Atleast I say I am sorry for the mistakes I make, They don't even say it eventhough they know they are wrong.

I just noded,in my mind, I felt very sad for her,for her dreams, despite our rough relationship,because of her pressures from the spy in our group,she now regrets the pressures and wants my approval on her agenda.I know it wasn't her when she said, some of those things, she said. I am waiting to see the result of this office politcs happening and this huge structural change in our department's result. Everyone thinks its a failour, becasue the goal is great but the executioner is not professional, and he is under too much influence of the spy. In a way, it's funny, I never thought all those lessons in history, we learned, would ever come handy. But here it is, but in a very small scale. It's amazing how much some one can manipulate someone else to endanger his position for the manipulator!!!The results of the change will be finalized today and everyone is just watching. I have chosen my path, I know they want me and need me, and its my turn to give them a hard time, I am going to move to the technical support group, when they extend my contract.

Yesterday I had the most interesting experience with my car!!well at 7:10 am, when I was leaving the house, I realized my starter doesn't work, I tried several time, but no sign of any life in my poor car, so I rushed to my mom, and asked her to take me to work so in the afternoon I can find someway to fix it. So finally I got to work to my astonishment only 10 minutes later!!whoever knows me enough,knows that I am paranoid with me being on time at work,and I not kidding, I will be on my desk 7:30 +/-1 minute. Anyways I could get a ride with one of my co workers, where she dropped me off at Downsview subways station and with 84 bus, I finally got home,now it was 5:15 and I was thinking on how to fix it, shall I call my mom to call CAA?Is it the battery problem?Is it the starter problem, they were all the topics that my coworkers adviced me on!!so finally an angle came to my rescue, and helped us see if the problem was because of the Battery or not nwith the aid of my dad's car, first trial, I could hear my car's engine..I had this big smile on my face, then we decided to give it some time to charge up but when we turned it off again it went dead again, so we charged the battery again, and now this time were wondering it is the translator's problem or not. Since we couldn't find a way to figure it out, we took my car to his hospital, Canadian Tire, anyways I got lucky that it wasn't too full, After some tests, they said the problem was the battery and it was dead, so I ended up buying a new battery but know my beautiful car is alive and running:)now it's my turn to be charged up..I NEED A VACATION!!!!

Star Wars and Election!!

Most of the weekend was the talk over election and how people who voted or boyocoted. It wasn't a big suprize for me that Rafsanjani got elected. Anyways now it's second round between Rafsanjani and someone called Ahmadi nejad, that I don't know of. But one thing is now clear to me, the ignorance of us, who live outside of Iran. We should admit that we don't know what is going on in Iran, because of the fact that we don't live there anymore and we don't get the right news and sences.
Yesterday I got the chance to watch star wars. My friends explained to me the history of the movies and the terminology. It was a pretty sad movie to me, I nearly cried. In a way may be because it was a bit like what my country might go through if the misunderstanded vote being casted. I was not a big fan of unrealistic movies, but what I found out is that, even in the most unreal movies, the story line can be real, same as in a very real movie, the story line can be unreal and illogical. In this episode, It links the past, present and future. It's pretty sad how a hard decsions can cause so much pain and distruction and if you slip in your decsion and if you do something for the sake of your loved ones, if you don't consult them, the results can even be deadly for those loved ones. It's a story of a deep love connection, in which the boy is willing to shake his ideals for the sake of girl's life, little he knows that the girl loves the boy because of his ideals. And she won't be willing to live if she sees him lose his ideals and path. It's sad, but makes me think, how many times, I have heard that a situation got worse because of lack of communication. At the end, Love is to let go of your beloved to come back to you, if it is true love.

Iran's presidential election

Despite my desire to go and vote today after thinking for a while after what a couple keep talking about and reading all different weblogs, I don't think it's practical to go to Ottawa, I love my country and I know for a fact that I will go back to make changes in Iran's way of life. I just know I will..Don't ask me how, I just have a feeling that what I am about to do when time is right,will take Iran to another step. Its not politics but it's in people's mindset.But I wish I could have voted. Instead I guess I will buy something simialr to that, a lottary ticket!!!I think the chances that my candidate win is very similar to winning a lottary ticket!!

It's my best friend's first day at work and so very excited for him. I can't wait to hear all the great stuff about the workplace:)

Purdue Pharma, US branch, lost its oxy contin patent and therefore had to let go of around 720 poeple...the consequences of their loss was not much really to us since our patent is valid until 2007. But major restructuring happened today at my department. Some of them was office politics and some was managment reinforced. In a way I was glad to see the changes, since in my mind, it was always a big question mark on why is this group not more organized, Despite having two supervisors. Well now, we have 3 groups that each one will focous on specific project. I am suppose to be with the raw material and Narcotic finished products and stability group. But my other supervisor is fighting over me!!I guess if I leave production group, alot of my work would be over to other already overworked team members!!!it's interesting in a way but lots of over work coming ahead as our manager put it. Anyways I am leaving this company in the begining or end of August.

INCOMPLETE-BACK STREET BOYS

They are back again and up on the chum charts with this song. Enjoy:)

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my babyIt's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I don't mean to drag it on, but I can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete

Weekend was a lot of fun, friday night, I went to an introductary class of Argantinan Tango and then off to another dancing gathering, Saturday I went to a more intellectual gathering and sunday was Iran-Bahrain soccer game and going to Harbour front afterwards. Smoggy evening made the decks of harbour front dreamy and great for taking pictures. Eating our sandwitches while the wind was blowing smoothly on our faces, with a dimmed lights, brought back memories in the past, when I was in Iran, I don't know why, talking about election, all brought back the memories of June of 1376 when I was able to vote for the first time and then I could never see the fruit of that vote because we moved to Canada. Now after 8 years, Listening to people talking about election, and how encouraging they are to vote, makes me think of how distant I have become toward my country, toward my ideals when I was younger, Have I changed that much?I used to monitor my changes in time, and reflect, but this is the ultimate change in my personality, not caring enough. My friend says, our future is tied to Iran, you know that, right?and a shiver just go up my spine, and just don't know and don't want to know what is going to happen, everything is so perfect at this moment in my life,June13,2005, that I don't want to ruin it with thinking of doubts.

walking in the park at Willowdale and Shepparad, dancing Salsa under the light poles on a stage like area at 9:30 in the evening,humming Ali Koochooli music tone!, taking sips of honey dew and peach bubble tea, all sounds like a dream, but I am living in that dream. It's the small things in life that make the quality of life better, at least for me:)and today is going to be my first exposure to Argantinian Tango, then off to go to my friend's house. Tomorrow is other friend's party and sunday watching Iran soccer game:)pretty busy schadule;)add cleaning my room, do some personal and house chores and monday is back again!!!!

We have to learn to seperate people's personality from their art, from Literature to science and etc. Even if we don't like an artist's personality or even his/her work, does not mean that we should devalue his/her work. At least he has done some work verses people who havent. It's easy to critic someone's work, without having an experience in that type of work. An interesting thing that I also learned, in last night's IAUT meeting is that, proper communication is a great key to misunderstandings. And aslo I learned that there are still people that despite the fact that they realized a misunderstanding, but still vote otherwise just because they can not swallow their proud and don't want to admit that, they made a mistake, because they think people would judge them differently. I learned that there are people who can't see the big picture and that I should not assume everyone are that positive and don't look at things realistically. What is interesting is that most of the people in that group are highly educated and think they are after improvement of Iranian culture, and it's astonishing enough that with attitudes like that, they think a change will occur. But since I am a positive person, I guess on the contrary to my ideas, which is mostly looking at how a thought to do a task has formed and why should be supported or not, are the ones who are detail- oriented, and both are required for having a balanced group.

Don't Funk With My Heart-BLACK EYED PEAS



Picture source:http://blogs.guardian.co.uk

This song has moved fast on chum chart and now it's on the 5 top.It is an interesting song since it illustrates girls and boys insecurities and doubts in it's fun format. It's a dialoug with a boy and a girl about how they feel about falling in love and having a relationship. Although I wonder if the writer was a woman;) since boys are mostly not that descriptive. Enjoy!!

No no no no don’t PHunk with my heart
Yeah, No no no no don’t PHunk with my heart
I wonder if I take you home,
Would you still be in love baby (in love baby),

Girl you know you got me got me,
With your pistol you shot me shot me,
And I’m here helplessly in love
And nothing can stop me,
You cant stop me once I started
You cant return me once you bought it
I’m coming baby don’t doubt it (don’t make me wait)
So let’s be about it

No no no no don’t funk with my heart

Baby ask me trusting trusting,
When I come with lusting lusting,
Cos I bring you that comfort
I aint over here cos I want your
Body I want your mind too,
Interesting that I find you,
And I’m interested in the long haul,
Come on girlYeehaaaaw!!!

I wonder if I take you home,
Would you still be in love baby (in love baby),

Girl you had me once you kissed me,
My love for you is not iffy,
I always want you wit’ me
I’ll play Bobby and you play Whitney (aaaeeeaaa)
If you smoke I smoke too
That’s how much I’m in love wit’ you,
Crazy is what crazy do,
Crazy in love I’m a crazy fool

Why you so insecure
When you got passion and love here,
Y’always claimin’ I’m a cheater
Think I'm up and go leave ya
For another senorita
You forgot that I need ya
You musta caught amnesia
That’s why you don’t believe-awha..yeah
Don’t you worry bout a thing, baby
Cos you know you got me by string, baby

Baby girl you make me feel,
You know you make me feel so real,
I love you more than sex appeal, cos of
That tha tha tha tha that there girl
That tha tha tha tha that there girl

No no no no don’t funk with my heart

For Better or For Worth

I was trying so hard not to cry, and not let even a tear drop because my black mascara would ruin my whole face, I looked at her and then at him, and how they are moving to a glorious future. She was nervous, but she got relieved when the maid of honor finally arrived.

Do you take Simin as your lawfully wedded wife?...he nodded, you should say yes I do, the priest said to the groom..she said it with more confidance, apparantly he wanted her when she was in her twenties, she rejected him, he went on and got married but I guess at the end love conqured and in their fourties, they are together. Isn't it amazing how life can change in decades?In a way it can be scary but may be it's interesting too..life isn't that boring after all. It's not all planned out..things change...I wonder if you should take things seriously or go with the flow..

We danced all night, I wanted to make it fun for the bride, I took as many pictures as possible.Listened to political views of the guests for the upcoming election. Listening to someone that was so devoted to Iran and religion, and how he has changed in 7 years, how he is so cynical about Iran and this election. I compared him when he came to Canada till now. He thinks what's the point, in a way he is right, this election is not for the people of Iran, it's mostly to show the validity of governement of Iran's image to the world, specially to those countries who have huge bussines deals with Iran. It's just the matter of vote count to prove their right to rule the country. But at the same time, I think these things should happen for the people inside too, in a way it's a form of awareness. May be in the next 100 years we get to a sustainable system with a stable economy. I beilieve in voting, we all are citizens, why not be a responsible one.

Last night was Dr. Nami's talk at Mohandes, He discussed Modernity and tradition in Art in Iran. It was a very interesting talk, I enjoyed it since I am not much familiar with Arts specially different styles of drawing, I have gone to drawing classes when I was a kid but that was the end of it;)This Saturday is one of my dearest family friend's wedding. I can't describe how happy I am for her, In Canada where close friends become family, I feel I part of bride's family,Simin joon love you tons:)I still don't know what I want to do with my hair!!Wait for a change:P..Have a lot of things to do on Sunday, look at all the relevant job postings and start applying to taste the market.I have to run to work now...

Madagascar


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Last night, My friend and I with my brothers went to watch Madagascar. The moview theater wasn't too full but the majority of the audiances were there for their kids!!!But the funny thing is that I felt I had the most fun of all, I laughed out loud just like a kid, I wonder if those kids were too small to understand the jokes or not, anyways I liked it a lot. In a way the story line could be applied to humn life. It the story of a few animals being courted out of NY zoo to Kenya, but along the way the got to Madagascar. The story looks at how their behaviour changes as they move from being surved and groomed to the wild. I loved the lion there, it reminded me of my friend:)I loved his mane. The sad part of the Cartoon was when the lion realized that his natural tendancey is to eat meet vs. vegtables and that his friends, Zebra, Giraffe and Hippo are his food, he tried to hide his true nature for the sake of friendship, but at the end the way he was groomed and brought up defeated his natural tendancey. I wonderwhat happens when a human from a civilized and wealthy class, belowered to a much lower class? Would they still remember their friends?I mean does survival of the futus is as harsh as the name is, or it may differe in humans. After all aren't we the thinker animal?

Convention

As part of CVG volunteer, I was invited to a very interesting meeting to help with brainstorming of CVG's annual convention. We went to China King Buffet, very good food, alot like Mandarine,I got to meet the managers of several companies, Apotex, Astra Zeneca, Lilly, Pharm Eng, Pathon,GSK...it was interesting to talk to those people and feel finally in my skin when I am with them. I heard the news from Apotex massive layout of around 125 people!!!can you imagine!!only 25 of them were from R & D..anyways some times faith suprizes you when you are following up it..I was suppose to meet one of the co founders of PharmEng Technologies last year through my one my contacts which never happened. Last night I got to meet him in person, in a way I am proud of myself, since I am extending my network in this industry. The funny thing is that as soon as he saw me, he told me:oooooooooh, so you are the Azadeh from Purdue!!!!so imagine this!!I was shocked..I asked:how do you know me?he said:I know!!!!I wonder how does he know..probably through Steve..I don't know, I don't care at this point on how he knows me, I just want to meet him in person if possible.

Despite for numerious reasons that I did not want to be part of IAUT again. I got elected for the outreach committe. I hope it goes well this year.seeing friends again, going out to Saboo, then to another friends home for a chat was fun. But now it's back to reality. My confusion over what I am going to do after August. I am just drained out of energy now and don't want to think or do anything with my life. I wonder how my parents are so energetic and move to the unknown and take the challange. I am just tired of thinking. I am tired of stratigic planning..I just want to close my eyes and not think at all..and don't see the people, that by seeing their life, make me doubt my self and my abilities. I just want to get detached from this world..may be just die.

This week is a short week but going to be full of events. Thursday is my company's field trip and in the evening is CVG appreciation dinner for LC MS organizers. Friday I get off work at 13:00 so I am very excited about that and my semi long weekend will start again. Today's agenda is just to wrap up IAUT's election presentation and then off I go..I still have two major thing to do in my career life, that I have been dreading over. First is talking to the manager of validation!!anyways it's done. I won't be going to that department, since my manager wants to keep me:(I don't know if I should leave anyways and don't care or care?I don't know if he will pay back my loyalty or not. That is why I was avoiding to whole issue. And second is just sending my resume to my friend. I don't know why when people do me a favor, I feel very guilty. I guess I feel I was not capable enough to do it myself and I guess that's why I try to avoid asking people for help until I am completely drained of energy and resources, but the funny thing is that I have gained someone so valuabe in my life that I guess sets out the important priorities in my life.

Thousand Island

My friend rented a silver Pontiac. We got some snacks and then off we go to Kingston. It was a very nice drive, sun was shining and the traffic was okay in general, despite some jams at some points. Listened to all types of musics and talked about everything possible, to talk about!!and then we reached to the office of Thousand Island cruise, we bought two tickets for an hour trip and off to the beautiful sceneray, it was windy and raining at some points but it was like a dream with the fog covering some islands, it felt we were detached from the rest of the world when we were watching the islands and taking pictures,imagining living in those houses for a week. I guess we both got to the same conclusion that it would be quite boring after a week!!One interesting thing about the church on islands were that the priest would come on his boat with the rest of the people on their boats and he would preach!!It was quite funny. Most of the people on board were tourists, it was interesting. Once guys tarted talking Spanish to me!!This was a first..now I guess can be misktaken for spanish people. It was a fine compliment, since I love spanish passion and love to travel to Spain some day:)

Welcoming the long weekend



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The positions I am going to server in Mohandes for the next two years are the head of new commers and registration committee as well as the secretary. Can't wait for making some changes in Mohandes;)..Also can't wait for the long weekend..I am going to go to Thousand Islands with my beloved friend. God Bless the Queen for being born and made this weekend a long weekend!!!!!

Isn't it great when you don't have high hopes...then when things don't work out, you won't be too diappointed?...I am sick..damn T.O's weather..can't wait to go somewhere warm.

My schadule is abit crazy this week, since I am on afternoon shift. Last night I was on afternoons meaning that I started work at 15:15 and finished at 23:16 and today I start at 7:30 to 15:30 all because of Mohandes internal election today that I have to part take. Now it's 6:08 and I have a big headache from lack of sleep but no worries, I know my work plan for today;)Isn't it great when your friend cooks for your dinner at work:)?Everything in my company is overly looked after.Camera's everywhere, monday night I was out of the building after everyone was out, and everyone got to know about it!!!Poor night supervisor had to make sure that I won't left behind since my supervisor apprantly had complained to him already....everything has the right measures, if you go late, security will catch you if you go to early, HR asks why!!!I find it that my company is very disciplined when I compare it to my other friends.Well today is D- day to go and finally talk to my manager about my career focous and if he is willing to let go of me for another department..I hope he doesn't get too upset, because I am sure in his mind he is thinking he is losing some one in his department with all the work load happening now..I feel bad thinking of leaving already:(

When You Kiss Me - Shania Twain

This could be it, I think I'm in love
It's love this time
It just seems to fit, I think I'm in love
This love is mine

I can see you with me when I'm older
All my lonely night are finally over
You took the weight of the world off my shoulders
(The world just goes away)
Oh, when you kiss me
I know you miss me
And when you're with me
The world just goes away
The way you hold me
The way you show me that you adore me

Oh, when you kiss me
Oh, yeah
You are the one, I think I'm in love

Life has begun
I can see the two of us together
I know I'm gonna be with you forever
Love couldn't be any better
Oh, when you kiss me
I know you miss me
And when you're with me
The world just goes away
The way you hold me
The way you show me that you adore me
Oh, when you kiss me
Oh, yeah

A small talk at work

Validation Associate:My managers have very good impressions of you!
Junior Engineer:Really??
V.A:They talked about you in our departmental meeting!!and mentioned your name several time!
J.E:(with more astonishment!):)
V.A:The job is yours
J.E:I don't know. Your boss will choose whoever he thinks is bust suited
V.A:(looking at me with a sarcastic smile):yeah I saw they interveiwed someone else
J.E:The key to this complicated equation is my boss
V.A:What does he want?
J.E:I don't know, he is not here..he is on his second honeymoon in London and Paris!!!!!
V.A:!!!
J.E:I hope when he comes back he is in a good mood.
V.A: Good Luck
I try not to keep my hopes too high, just to be realistic about abandaning my Q.C. pals..it's like her boss saying, this is like a marriage, you have to talk to your partner before leaving them!!!(meaning that I just can't abandon them and cheat on them!!!!!!)I am getting a full course in career and life!;)

He wasn't-Avril Lavigne

There's not much going on today
I'm really bored, it's getting late
What happened to my Saturday?
Monday's coming the day I hate, hate
Sit on the bed alone
Staring at the phone
He wasn't what I wanted
What I thought, no
He wouldn't even open up the door
He never made me feel like I was special
He isn't really what I'm looking for
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey
This is where I start to bite my nails
And clean my room when all else fails
I think its time for me to bail
This point of view is getting stale
Sit on the bed alone
Staring at the phone
He wasn't what I wanted
We've all got voices
Stand up make some noise
Sit on the bed alone
Staring at the phone
He wasn't what I wanted
What I thought, no

Sky was so dark with all the clouds covering it, but finally a rim of light started to penetrate,when wind slowly moved the clouds.

Clouds=doubts
Light=hope
Wind=divine providence

This week is very important for me careerwise, because if I do get the position I want, it might help me alot in my next position in another company.It's just that timing is soooooooooo bad and my manager is away..I don't know how it is going to go but I am praying that is for good.

Mohandes Election

Last night was Mohandes election. This year I am going to just focus on Mohandes vs. last year that I was involved in many. Due to a great systematic ballot distribution idea, by one of the board members, we had a very smooth election this year. I candidate my self for another two year term since I think I can bring a different angle of Engineers in our society. It is a great feeling when people trust you and believe in your abilities to make a change. I hope I can deliver their expectation in my last term at Mohandes.The new group of people are very energetic and from different background. I look forward working with them. Yesterday to my suprize, I was opening the door to go to another section that I saw Manager of Validation. He told me he does need someone for two month for his department and the big question is now is if my Manager wants to let go of me. If it does happen then I think it is one of the best career opportunities that has happpened to me. "panah bar khoda"I guess;)and we will see how the interview for R & D position goes as well on friday. I wish and pray that my friend's tension week ends with laughter and relaxation too. He has been so strong and I hope all his wishes come true. Here is a song that might cheer you up:)

I Say A Little Prayer- Dionne Warwick

The moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little prayer for you
While combing my hair, now
And wondering what dress to wear, now
I say a little prayer for you
Forever, forever, you'll stay in my heart
And I will love you
Forever, forever, we never will part

Oh, how I'll love you
Together, together, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only be heartbreak for me

I run for the bus, dear
While riding I think of us, dear
I say a little prayer for you

At work, I just take time
And all through my coffee break-time
I say a little prayer for you
Forever, forever, you'll stay in my heart
Together, together, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only be heartbreak for me
I say a little prayer for you
I say a little prayer for you
Forever, forever, you'll stay in my heart

And I will love you
My darling, believe me
For me there is no one
But you ....

well my interview was reschaduled for friday. Today I have Mohandes Election,Saturday I am going to one birthday and one good bye party. Both of them are my good friends so no missing the events there;)I have a runion of 0T3 next satruday and I think I will meet up with my 4 close girlfriends, My dear Muna,Lina,Joelle,Christine and Maria. I can't wait to see all of them.I think spring may finally approach us slowly but charmingly, like a girl that you can't resist despite her moody behaviour!!

And last but not least I think I am going to approach my company with a propositon/deal which is in a way one of my passions as well, as well as great benefits for them.

Crazy In Love- Beyonce Knowles

Part of "Crazy in Love"lyrics which became number one on the chum charts for several weeks last year.

Got me looking so crazy, my baby
I'm not myself lately
I'm foolish,
i don't do this
I've been playing myself Baby
i don't care Cuz your love got the best of me
And baby you're making a fool of me
You got me sprung and
i don't care who sees
Cuz baby you got me so crazy

I have an interview for an internal posting of our company today. It probably will be interesting.

Bouton Rouge

Last night I went out with my very good friends to a well known expensive restuarant called Bouton Rouge. The atmosphere was very interesting and our conversations were totally fun. Our Server's name was Jacob, a very polite but flirtatious guy who we ended up to know better at the end of our dinner!!I have never had this much of fun with my persian girlfriends before. When I go out with my non Iranian friends, We always end up getting involved in something funny;)Since I was the youngest of the group they picked on me last night which I think was pretty hallarious. By the end of the night our server told us he knew we were presians!!and I wonder how though..last night's image if you will was alot like four beautiful girls sitting talking about the things sex and the city stars would talk about;)We were listening about one of our girlfriend's romantic engagement story there. But after she was saying how freaked out she is about this whole thing, Which I totally agreed. I think I am either getting better at this or just trying to put it at the back of mind and not to think about the behavioural aspect of my life after marriage.
Yesterday in general was a good day, I found out with changing two variables how to get a better numbers on one of our products and my supervisor and maganer were thrilled, and after a while I got the interview with exclusice R & D on monday. I am not really excited about it. Since I have a feeling that they already have chosen their candidate and the whole thing is a formality in front of HR!!

Yesterday at my company, we had to go on a back up generator due to power failiour, I still don't know what the problem was exactly but all the intruments in our deparetment were beeping;)to indicate the use of back up power. Now the clocks at our company are digital and and electrically connected to each other. At break time,9:30 my group and I went for a drink, almost all the time I go for tea and cake, I looked at the clock it was 9:30 after 10 minutes I looked back, it was still 9:30!!!it was funny time stopped at that moment. I always thought about what would happen if time would stop. But the funny thing is that my manager was saying, well the break can last any amount of time since the clock is not moving but we can't go home anyways since we are suppose to be at work at that time!!!haha...it was funny, Sometimes I would say I wish the time would stop at the this glorious moment. But now I say, let's have time proceed it's way. And when the power was back, the clock jumped to 9:44!!I guess no fooling around with time, eh?conservation of mass and energy and I guess this is time!:)I suggest the fourth law of thermodynamics!!;)

I love listening to my parent's age group conversations. They are always interesting and exciting. From Literature to politics I learn new things everyday. For example today I learned how magnificant, powerful countries movement to future can be. It's like playing chess. Did I ever tell you I love playing chess?the ideas of thinktanks and vision of a country is important. Since nowadays I compare everything to make up of an organization/company. They all have alot of things in common. What does future holds for us?for example was 9/11 attak on US only affected US? or did it affect developing countries as well?well the emotional aspect of this attack can be seen in media's exageratation of the idea of terrorism. But at the same time the great minds with tons of money from developing countries, if they decide the don't feel comfortable living in US, would cause US future a big loss. Why is that, all of a sudden India became the center of new developments and manufacturing? Aside from the fact that one of the assets of India is their population. However big named American Indians decided to leave US, and with that they took their money as well and used it in investing in India. My dad has a great analysis on this.

"Don't marry someone because you can live with them,
Marry someone that you can not live without"

Interpreter

"There has been unjust wars happened through out history just out of misunderstanding and minterpreteration."

weekend was fun. At least after a few days of stress, it was my time to recover. My good friend's b-day and seeing her beautiful engagement ring. Spending time with my own beloved friend. Practice dancing after a million years and realizing it's just like before and even better. I watched the Interpreter as well. I liked it alot. Nicole Kidman and Sean Penn were fantastic. I think the sentance above was one of the key sentances of the movie, that was interesting to me.I was at the theater for two reasons, one to watch the movie and second to spy on my brother and his friends!!it's because both I and him were spying on each other, he is smart, he sat on the last row..and I went to sit there as well. So watching his moves was harder, But I would peak to see what he is up to and he would do the same!!!come on!!I am the big sister here;)this relationship is all about dictatorship remember;)but honestly raising a kid is very hard. I don't know when do you let go of your kids..

I have never cried so many times in a day in my life in front of so many people!!!!I feel something broke in me..but may be I gain something else with it too..how is it that when you feel sad, you feel you have aged million years?and the day will never end..but thank God that the day did end..with a strange smile and feeling on my face.

Today I will not be myself
Today I will learn to get my rights
Today I will show them that I am stronger than what they think
Today I will learn not to be myself
So pray for me just today

Some times despite my attempts not to prejudge people and situations I still do it. Here is what happened in the past three weeks and the cause of all has been miscommunication. In my job I have to write reports everyday and they go through a number of people that have to see that report and sign it. Since it's a very sensitive industry and FDA like a dog is looking at everything, no one likes to give them a reason to be questioned, since answering it would be complicated. Here is the situation.I got a product manufacutred from UK since I am in Quality Control, I have to make sure this drug is really what they say they have made.Now I realized that these drugs failed to meet the criterians and hence can not be released. Now after several people have looked at it, its situation is a mess, Talking to QA's manager, I realized that they have to come up with a reason to stop a formal investigation which can take months. Initially I thought my supervisor is after me to nail me, with her attitude, but talking to QA made more sence. If she had communicated well, our department wouldn't have been having a hectic environment in the past few weeks. At the end of the day, I am just glad that my decision on failing the drugs were the same with the results of a 15 year exprienced person in our department. I hold my self responsible if a patient take a drug that is said to be 200mg +/- 5% to be consuming a 217 mg drug. It has passed the spec. by so much..anyway for peopole not in this business might seem strange, but we talk about small numbers..all the time..and how it affects and all that..it's the nature of pharmaceutical industry:)

Sun Set Beach

Yesterday after work, that seems to get busier by the minute, My friend and I decided to go to sun set beach. You rearly find nice weather in Canada.Either its too hot and humid or it's cold and with windchilled. Last night I had skirt with sandles but a coat on top of it!!it was funny, A lady was walking by and was looking at me strangely!!I guess she hasn't seen a person with both summer and winter cloth together at the same time;) walking along the shore was wonderful, and the best part was when the sun set..then and there I realized why it is called Sun set beach..the colors and sun setting on the water was magnificant. We got dinner and sat on the grass and while eating watched the sun set. Afterwards we discovered a small park that I didn't know exists, Called Jessie something park..anyways I forgot her family name, the park was named after a couple who were operating a resort and after they decided not to operate, they gave the resort back to the government. The history of their life was written on a stone on that park:)I wonder if I can get something like that at some point in my life..but for different reasons;)isn't it cool?

This weekend was great..friday night, after an listening to a very interesting discussion group, I head off to see my girlfriends. Miss M and L:)It was so relaxing walking down Yonge street on a great weather..we stopped at Cafe Mirage for a coffee and ended up staying there for 2.5 hours;)Catching up with friends is always great..specially you hear great news of engagement of your dear friends..I can't beilieve how this year from the start, I keep hearing about engagement and marriage of my friends. Must be a great year;)"sale khoroose digeh";)haha..anyways saturday I watched 1 movie and 2 half a movie;)..finished one half movie and then watched one and saw half the other one.."Autumn in New York", "Basic Instinct", "How to marry a millioner" are the chronological order..well Autumn in New York was a lot like Sweek November, But I think there was an ambiguity in the story line for the audiences, whereas in the aformentioned one it was simple and quite heart breaking. Basic instinct was a detective/mystry movies, and the ending was a dual for the audience..you could guess who the killer is and can justify it..but now that I am writing this critic about it, I just realized who the actual killer was and how she manipulated the whole deal!!!I wasn't paying too much attention to the last movie where Marilyn Monroe was acting in, since I was learning how to play Romi with my friend..cool game:)Although in my humble opinion there not much of a thinking involved;)may be I am just a beginner in this game..anyways I am not a big fan of Marilyn Manroe, the way she speaks drives me crazy,"eshveye kharaki miad"!!!and last but not least, sunday I enjoyed my time with my parents and our family friends outdoors at one of the shores of lake Ontario..it was really refreshing althouh it was cold!!!!!!!!

ACT AS A QUEEN TO MEET A KING(behrokh's quote);)

Karma - Alicia Keys


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When first time I heard this song, few things captured my attention, at the begining I didn't know who the artist was so I just listened to music and lyrics. I would have never guessed in a million years that the lyrics belonged to Alicia Keys, it wasn't her style..but I guess since we are alike I can relate to her;)our birth signs are the same, she like suprizing people. well with this song she really did..so different from her others..also her attitude toward the problems is logical and phyics oriented;)you see in the lyrics...third law of Newton..but if you listen close you can hear the nice violin notes..then and there I realized with this type of background music composer, it's not possible than no other, but Alicia Keys...you go girl:)


Weren't you the one that said, that you don't want me anymore.
And how you need your space, and give the keys back to your door.
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me.
But still you said that love was gone, and that I had to leave.
Now you, talkin bout a family Now you,
sayin I complete your dream Now you,
sayin I'm your everything
You confusin me
What you say to me
Don't play with me
Don't play with me.
Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you Til 3 o'clock in the morn
And when you came home, you'd always have some sorry excuse.
And explainin to me, like I'm just some kinda fool
I sacrifice the things I want to and do things for you
But when it's time to do for me,
you never come through
Now you, wanna be a bond of me (eyyy)
Now you, have so much to say to me (heyy)
Now you, wanna make time for me
What you do to me.
You confusin me
Don't play with me Don't play with me.
Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you Til 3 o'clock in the morn
Night after night Knowin somthing goin on
Wasn't home before me
You was,you was gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy, but believe me.
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceived me.
And never do wha u was supposed to do
No need to hose me fool, cause I'm ova you
Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
It's called Karma baby.

Static Electricity

Every time I am with this person, we exchange the most unusual phenomena!!it's not really unusual in the small scale, but what we encounter, before even shake hands, is much more, we give each other a great deal of static electricity shock..!!and after that to everything else..like keys..cars..etc...yesterday when I opened my car door, I gave it to my car!!and I saw the blue colour!!!hhhhhmmmmmm...I wonder if I can connect this to chemistry, my favorite subject;)

Simplified equation of J.E's life!!!

y= life goals
x= controlled variables
z= uncontrolled variables

y= exp(x*z)

I wish x*z was approaching to zero...or at least x=1/z

Great weather is finally approaching T.O!!


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This weekend has been great, friday night one of my friend and I went to one of the parks in Toronto, it seems like ages since I could walk outside and breathe deeply with pleasure rather than miseary;)!!you can feel oxygen entering your body..it was great.. yesterday I got the chance to finally visit Vaughn Mills Mall..one of the largest malls in Canada...the architecture and interial design of the mall with alot of designated sitting area with different moods and themes. The mall was fully of artistic imagination and showed lots of creativity..we ended the day with a great bubble tea from Bubble tease place, My honey dew milky drink was fabulous with tons of Tapioka. I always thought bubble tea is a Japanse drink but after asking the owner of the place, I realized that it is a Taiwan's delicacy.Isn't it great that you learn new things everyday?:)